07.09.2025
I just don’t like the way they talk about bipolar, and that it's a mental illness, it could be really bad, I mean it is really bad. but bipolar makes you a special phoenix that gets reborn from its own ashes. STOP victimizing people with bipolar, WE ARE FINE. too bad for you we’re much stronger than you. this couldn’t be it, all the projects that I want to make, the change I want to happen, it couldn’t just be because I’m MANIC, it’s the desire that comes out of my roots, it’s the stories i’ve carried all years, it could be an imbalance in the chemicals in my brain, but it just meant to happen, the imbalance didn’t just happen out of it self, it’s the experiences i had that shaped my brain. it cannot just be ill because it’s been subjected to non normative kind of experiences. enough with normativity.
12th.
" hassa li ena wayek bech nwaliw besties "
"nahna déjà besties mch bech nwaliw."
--- translation ---
"feel like you and I are going to become besties"
"we are already besties."
we go to the same coffee shop ever since we started "dating", we went twice to this other coffee shop that is further a bit from where we live - listening to a piece of music called "un homme qui me plait" ... just like how me and siwar used to meet in the same place when we started doing our friendship, that is now 8 years long. we'd meet in this small park near my place, and everytime we meet, we talk about all sort of subjects, I would think before we meet, that I'll probably not find subjects to talk about, but we somehow have things to talk about everytime. you don't feel burnout because you've spent the last two to three hours talking. there's no touching when we are in a public space. which I very much like. there's no excessive texting. which I very much like. there's no excessive feelings. which I very much like. he pays for my tea. buys me just enough cigarettes. take me home. take the side where there are cars passing, because he's afraid a car would hit me. compliments my yellow tshirt and the way i looked cheerful.