age and time are very weird concepts, I've never thought I'd grow up, that I would ever be 24, I always felt small, despite my height, I always felt so small I could hardly be seen. I somehow started to think of Issam for some reason, if you see me, if you care about me then why not stay with me? why you never call? it's strange but issam is unlike any other guy i've been with, I could never forget Issam. and yet I feel so small? he is just another human being, what makes him so special, if I tend to forget about everyone else, then why not just forget about him?
last saturday night was horrible, I went to this friends house that invited two girls he barely know along with his rommate and other friend we know in common. it was so random, he doesn't know this, but that person disgust me, he is so fucked up, never met someone with such low iq. he was absolutely retarded in terms of emotions. he pretends like he feels but he's only guided by his manly desires, just like a fucking monkey, we didn't have any chairs so i was forced to sit on his lap. he started to touch my waist, who the fuck allowed him? he talks like a fucking pervert. I didn't regret going, because I made sure to never go there again. i am slowly cutting contact with HIM.